|Demo the old|
|Momentum is a-building|
For us Boomers, we have a large back log of experiences to draw on for encouragement or discouragement. Part of the fun of life is trying and succeeding at new experiences and as we age oftentimes there is a default position that says, ‘been there or can’t do that.’ Especially when it is something new, like my back yard. I projected my difficulties in other home improvements to the new one and created a mental block. The trick was to just begin. How does this relate to herky jerky efforts at our goals? In the back yard, I avoided the task and it stalled because of the anxiety it provoked. I had to calm down and take the time to let the situation settle and then act from a solid place.
When this happens a lot we end up with a back log of undone, half completed, maybe plans cluttering up our emotional AND physical space. In my fourth year at Berkeley, I was in a hurry to graduate and get on with my life. It seemed like every day was a year and time was wasting. Although I did not have a plan for when I finished, I just wanted to get it done. I finished a quarter early and returned to my hometown and then got busy spinning my wheels since I had not slowed down to prepare emotionally for the big change. This incident was a watershed and set a direction for much of my life. In the clarity of maturity and hindsight, that decision is still infused with regret. Regret for not embracing and savoring that place and time of my life. Now, in another transitional time (retirement), I have mostly allowed big changes to move at their own, organic pace. Leaning into the questions and not grabbing for the ephemeral answers. As one of my meditation teachers, RajneeshOsho, once said, ‘Don’t just do something, sit there.’ From the calm of the settling waters, the life then bubbles up naturally, without the maelstrom of second thoughts, fears, choices, and the unknown. So, savor the flavor of the moment and take the first step.